999 true things about me

1. i like cold tea. not iced... just cold
2. i would rather take the long way instead of changing lanes
3. i love coconuts
4. if i'm alone in the car, i'll turn my blinker off and back on so it blinks in time to the blinker in front of me
5. fast blinkers are annoying
6. when i walk my left foot points straight and my right foot turns out
7. sometimes i fine thick, coarse, black hair growing out of my head
8. i get headaches from headbands
9. i love old things
10. i love the smell of coffee
11. i've taken 3 years of spanish
12. i can't really speak spanish
13. i started playing violin at age 3
14. if i fall asleep and my feet are cold, i have bad dreams
15. if i'm too hot at night i wake up at exactly 2:14 am every single time
16. i think stupid things are funny
17. i don't really like milk
18. i like pear-scented things
19. i like pear jellybeans
20. i like dr pepper jellybeans
21. peanut butter and pickles is surprisingly delicious
22. i wish i liked science
23. i am a mormon
24. my ancestors were mormon pioneers
25. if i'm walking fast, it means i have to go (like, to the bathroom)
26. my great-great-something-grandfather was on the Mayflower
27. i am 5 feet 6 inches tall
28. disneyland was my first memory
29. i remember random useless things
30. i love asian food
31. i love asians
32. i am very irish
33. i used to irish dance
34. i get allergies in june, only in june
35. i like 9's and 3's
36. i wish i was born in the 50's
37. i love sitting at the bottom of swimming pools
38. i hold my pen wrong
39. i have a weird bump on my knuckle from holding my pen wrong
40. i know how to spell subpoena
41. i usually compose music in Ab major, so the Db doesn't feel left out 
42. i will make fun of your utah accent
43. i love oregon beaches
44. i like being cold, unless i'm asleep
45. my feet turn purple regularly
46. i name all my instruments
47. i love going barefoot
48. i love buying shoes
49. i don't like necklaces
50. i want a pet pig named george
51. i want 2 cats, ringo and linguine 
52. during the summer i pray that my future husband will be smart at scout camp
53. i love rollercoasters
54. i hate heights
55. i like indie music
56. i wish at 10:10
57. i like indian food
58. i want to live in india
59. i can't sleep in
60. i love nature
61. i hate hiking
62. i wish i liked to run
63. i have tiny ankles
64. i have a birthmark on my left temple
65. my birthmark is commonly mistaken for a bruise
66. my second toe is longer than my big one
67. my favorite color is yellow
68. the first thing i ever bought was a pack of that zebra gum at safeway
69. i miss orange blossom special ice cream
70. most everything i own is pink
71. i don't really like pink
72. i absolutely love the beatles
73. i think paul mccartney looks like a monkey
74. i wish i was british 
75. i need a pet sloth
76. i wish my hair was wavier
77. i like being alone
78. i wish my hair was auburn
79. belle is my favorite princess
80. i like guys who wear skinny jeans
81. i like wearing skinny jeans
82. i can never get away with cheating
83. i love goofy sweaters
84. i don't like twilight
85. i don't like justin bieber
86. i make harry potter references a lot
87. i read the entire harry potter series backward
88. i don't like adele
89. i wish i liked adele
90. i stress out about everything
91. i don't like wicked
92. i used to act
93. i was hypolyta in a midsummer night's dream
94. i want to legally change my name to aubrey-claire
95. i went on a cruise to alaska
96. i use to love barbies
97. i'm scared of things grabbing me from behind
98. i have a weakness for black skin
99. gorillas are my favorite animal
100. i like sleeping in the tub (probably not the greatest...)

to be continued...

everyday vegan

okay, yeah, as a continuation of my bridge obsession...

this is the 59th street bridge  in beautiful nyc...

and this is the 59th street bridge song.

and it's pretty groovy. 

even though i enjoy cheese. a lot....

like... A LOT. 

i have made one of the greatest life decisions. 

i'm going to be vegan. 

like, a vegetarian who doesn't eat cheese. 

or yogurt, or milk, or eggs, or butter, or jell-o, or chicken broth.

or cheese. 

i love cheese. 

is it unethical to not be an ethical vegan? because ethical vegans don't use glue. or crayons.

and i like crayons almost as much as i like cheese. almost. 

and apparently i'm not allowed to call myself vegan if i use crayons.

so i guess i'm just your everyday unethical vegan.... 

goodbye:(

bridge obsession

i have this new obsession with bridges. i love them. so much.

it may or may not have something to do with the fact that i'm going to portland in a month. portland is full of bridges. portland is also my favorite.

there's also this really cute one outside my bedroom window. it crosses an irrigation ditch. (welcome to utah)

but the ditch got filled, so it just crosses... dirt. pretty(:

this one is my favorite. i am very emotionally attached to it. when i was little, we crossed it almost every day.

i mean, it was the first bridge i ever crossed. ever. in my entire existence. i was born on one side of the bridge, and we lived on the other. it's very special and near to my heart.



are you laughing? cuz that would be very rude.

and this one...isn't it so pretty?

and look at that gorgeous oregon sky.

i miss clouds. real clouds. and i also miss bridges.

we would cross this one and go to the rose festival parade. i was positive it would lift up while we were on and then our car would fall in the river. it was traumatic.


and anyway... i really like bridges. and in july, i will be in the city of bridges and i will relive my childhood.

sort of.

and i'll just be happy, because i'll be close to a bridge. actually, lots of bridges.

and really, the only reason i like bridges is because i like rivers. because rivers are water and water is life.

and i like life.

sometimes...

you find out things about yourself. and you're like...

yep.

that's totally me. why did it take me so long to realize?

p.s. please ignore the cruel and unusual previous post. 

today. it clicked. okay, so here's a little back story first. 

sometimes, i get on facebook just to zone out. seriously, i'm really not that interested in what my "friends" have to say to the world. i currently have 556. i talk to... 12 of them? i mean, it's nice to see what those 12 are up to while we are all out in the world and on our various adventures throughout the summer. i mean... what they're up to on their various adventures. my adventures remain strictly in utah valley and have yet to become "various"


and anywho, that's beside the point. the whole point of that was to say that i get on facebook to zone out. ponder. do something depthless.

i get a lot of thinking done on facebook. (that's the point.)

so today. it clicked. i realized that if you push me, i'm not going to do what you want me to do. i'm also not going to push back.

i'll probably end up getting up and walking the other direction.

figuratively.

possibly literally?

and that's the way i am. and that's why pushy people make me really grumpy.

unless i like them, then i'm only just grumpy. not really grumpy.

so, don't push me, and i won't run away from you. deal?

deal.

whatever people say i am, that's what i'm not.

(okay i stole the title from the Arctic Monkeys, big whoop.)


sometimes i remember who i used to be.

she was a pretty stupid person.

i can take criticism, i can. it eats me up inside. every. single. time.

but then, i get over it, and it's not a big deal and i move on with my life and try to be okay.

but seriously.

you can tell me how to live my life. you can tell me who to talk to and who not to. you can tell me to be better at being social and to get myself out more and to be a happy bubbly person and be nice to everybody.

guess what?

i am going to be aubrey. 


the end. maybe she'll fit into your criteria, maybe she won't. if it bugs you, not a big deal. she's just herself.

do.
not.
tell.
me.
what.
to.
do.

okay? okay.

let's be friends(: